Facing a host of technical problems beyond my ken, yesterday evening I reached my limit. Exasperated, I had a fit. Tired of the whole world, I railed against this civilization. Disgusted by the human species, I swore at the top of my voice. Foaming at my mouth, I wished to be dead. Or at least to run away from it all. Far, far away. I calmed down overnight. I feel better this morning, but my mind is set. Step by step, I will cut my ties with this world. This civilization is not for me. In fact, I despise it from the bottom of my heart. Bit by bit, I will cut my ties with my fellow humans. I am an unwilling member of the species, anyhow. If I blew up, it was for a reason. And I will follow that reason till I am rid of this despicable world. This I solemnly promise. Calmly, ever so calmly, too.

Addendum (October 31, 2015)

All technical problems, and especially those that are beyond one’s ken, need to be appreciated precisely because they inexorably lead to exasperation with this civilization and disgust with the human species. Step by step, such problems lead one to cut all one’s ties with this world. Bit by bit, they eventually lead one to the path of enlightenment. Well trodden, it shines ever brighter and ever straighter. Calmly, ever so calmly, one learns to relish all problems that come one’s way, for they only contribute to one’s liberation from this world. Sitting alone and remembering all technical problems that have come one’s way in recent past, one occasionally cracks a knowing smile. Welcome one and all, and especially those that are beyond one’s ken! This world was hardly worth fretting about, anyway. And enlightenment is one’s just reward for all the horrors of yesteryear.