The server hosting my Residua website was fixed by yesterday evening, but I am still reeling from the experience. My site means much more to me than I would have expected. Any problem with it becomes no less than existential. I become disoriented. Feeling powerless, I crumble. Everything around me loses meaning. Also, I experience irrational fears with all the trimmings of paranoia. My magnum opus has become central to my life. So central, in fact, that any glitch with it goes right to the bone. It becomes almost painful. After a long series of server problems, I am wondering what to do when confronted with another one, for there will surely be many more in the years to come. The trouble is that I do not have an answer. The best I can do at the moment is predict how I will feel if and when my site is threatened. In short, I will become disoriented over and over again. For the time being, this realization strikes me as a big step forward.