EMERGING ANXIETY (February 6, 2000)
As the realization of my dream to publish my book via the Internet is approaching, I am beginning to experience the old anxiety that I will die before my dream comes true. I remember similar fears just before I delivered the final version of the last edition of Residua to Sergio Polano in the early months of 1996. This time my helper—or, rather, my deliverer—is Simon Rae-Scott, who is developing and testing my website with the 1996 yearbook as a model. As of yesterday, I even have my own web address: www.residua.org. Returning to my emerging anxiety, it will take me several months to transfer the book files onto the website, and I sincerely hope that I will be granted the time to complete this task. Afterwards, I am yours, God. Assuming, of course, I do not have any other burning art project.
Addendum (May 1, 2016)
As a matter of fact, my website was born on February 4, 2000, a day earlier than this piece suggests. The domain name was registered on that felicitous date, that is. In the meanwhile, its expiration date has been extended on several occasions. At the moment, my registration is valid through February 4, 2022. But my anxiety is still with me after all these years. A few days ago, I enquired about extending my registration through 2050 or even 2100. I am yet to learn about the cost of such an extravagance, but I would be willing to go rather far to ensure that my site remains alive long after my death. And I assume that the World Wide Web will still be around by the end of this century. Even though I believe that our civilization will be in ruins by then, the web will be available in a few isolated pockets for a while longer. Fingers crossed.