THOUGHT AS A BYPRODUCT (March 7, 1980)
If it is indeed true that only thoughts that cannot understand themselves are true, it follows that it is impossible to learn from oneself, except if “oneself” is interpreted as a manifold that allows for internal communication, and disagreement, at any particular point in time, or if it is interpreted as a process that unfolds over time. Naturally, the parallel and sequential conceptions of “oneself” can be combined to yield an unfolding manifold. In that case the problem of self-understanding can be stated in terms of convergence, that is, divergence of this process. More specifically, the internal communication may generate an ever more stable agreement, or an ever-sharper disagreement. The former by necessity leads to consistency, which by the above assumption results in self-understanding, or untruth, while the latter may become explosive and therefore self-destructive. It follows that the only viable alternative is akin to the controlled combustion in a nuclear reactor: it must be assured that “oneself” never reaches either of the two conceivable extremes outlined above. More modestly, the internal communication must be conducted in such a manner that the necessary tension never reaches the level which precludes thought, that is, an ability to generate results which can be fed back into the process in order to secure its continuity. Conversely, thought itself is an outcome of the process of control. It is a byproduct of an instinctive drive to survive, or even more modestly, not to give in without a struggle.